Love and Leadership: why it matters to be conscious of your energy and how mine made me a better mother

If there’s one thing that’s taught me the most about love, and leadership, it’s motherhood.

The arrival of my children cracked me open in ways I could never have imagined.

Before them I was stuck in a cycle, of doing it all and getting nowhere.

My lack of consciousness was burning me out.

When they arrived, I couldn’t stay that way.

I’d created a life of pain from my own lack of self-awareness, and I wanted better for them even though I didn’t know how.

It would have been totally possible to stay on the path I was; the route to staying a victim was wide open.

And had I stayed on it our family would look very different today.

The love I felt for my children forced me to go within, and choose again. To choose be a better version of myself.

Choose the kind of woman I wanted to be, what I stand for and how I bring that to everything whether it’s parenting my children, supporting my clients or mastering my gifts.

So I learned how to handle my emotions, so I wouldn’t lash out at them.

I took personal responsibility, so as not to force them to grow up before they’re ready.

I’ve elevated us to a new timeline, to model what’s possible for them.

It wasn’t easy, but it all came from love.

Love showed me I was a leader, and what it really means to live as a self-led woman.

Learning to face the hard things and finding grace and beauty along the way.

Even learning to find joy in the mundane things.

I find gratitude in doing the laundry because it means my kids have clean clothes that they enjoy wearing, that allow them to be who they need to be.

Most of all learning to hold a space for them, and me, during the good times and throughout the hardest times.

Because that’s what love and leadership is, a level of consciousness.